Why I HATE to LOVE shopping

I love to shop, it's the plight of a fashionista, but it's not the spending, the crowds or the lines I hate. It's the self-esteem plunge that occurs anytime I go shopping. I love clothes, I have style, I don't want to wear a mumu. I hate when I walk into a store and see crazy sales (like Wet Seal, yesterday) and nothing fits me. It is a huge hit to my self-esteem no matter how educated I am and how passionately I believe that your body does not define you, it's still hard to accept that gorgeous skirt just won't fit no matter how much I suck in. It's hard to feel good about myself in these moments. I feel out of place and like everyone is staring at me. I find myself longing for that gorgeous blazer to fit and see thin little things fluttering around complaining that they are in a Small rather than an Extra Small. My quest usually results in me feeling sad, resentful and I end up buying things I don't need like makeup, handbags, shoes and scarves because they don't discriminate. No matter where I am one of the above will work for me. I leave feeling somewhat satisfied with my purchase yet still I can feel that tug inside that just screams because I don't look like everyone else. Honestly it's not something I think about on a regular basis, I wear cute, fashionable clothing and until I am facing a rack of $2 shirts at Wet Seal that don't fit I forget I don't look like the ideal woman.

My trusty accessories that never discriminate!

I don't understand why some companies don't even try to fit plus size women, is it shameful to see a bigger girl wearing their clothing? Why can an XL at Old Navy fit but not at American Eagle? Why isn't there a universal for clothing? Why are we numbered 6,8,10 and men get specific sizes 32" by 35".

Some stores that don't discriminate... Old Navy, Torrid, Lane Bryant, Gap, JcPenney, Maurices... can you think of others? Do you ever feel like this?

Check out Sassy-Fashionistas take on this issue here.